From 2016 to 2018, life was euphoric. College was completed, the board exam was passed, albums and EPs were launched, and job opportunities were flowing. Autotelic’s gigs were plentiful, yet the events overwhelmed me, leading to a lack of clarity.

I went through a ‘self-help books’ phase, fueled by caffeine in my veins, exploring every interesting aspect of life. The internet is both a blessing and a curse. It introduces you to a vast array of options that you can explore.

It was an exciting yet anxious feeling. At one point, I questioned the meaning of life and the reason for existence. Somehow, I felt confined into thinking that I should be a practicing chemist. Although I’m a registered chemist, I believe there’s more to explore in life.

After being employed by three companies, I decided not to take another job.

I’m going all in on music

But I think life is teaching me something.

In 2019, I was offered a position to teach chemistry at a university. I’m incredibly thankful to the person who gave me this opportunity. Although I wasn’t stellar during my academic years, someone trusted me, and I did my best to teach what I know in chemistry.

The impostor syndrome is so strong. I thought I’m just going to feel this around creative people.

Then, the pandemic hit, online classes became a norm, and it became exhausting

During moments of isolation, you often discover more about yourself and your capabilities. I spent my time into creating music independently, focusing solely on instrumentals since I don’t sing. I shared a couple of whack experimental tracks on social media.

Upon exploring, I figure out that my jam is the like of Lo-fi, Neosoul, Jazzhop, Boombap, Chillhop or whatever you call that thing.

I realized this after listening to a track that changed my perspective in life

The Journey – Tom Misch

Melancholic, melodic, motivational and made a pivotal moment on my life’s perspective. It’s crazy how a beat can give meaning to life.

From then, it pushes me to make beats.

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